Patience

Over the last few years, I've been asking God to grant me patience in all things.

In light of some recent changes in relationships in my life, I have found that I need to learn more about patience. Especially patience from God's perspective.

Check the verse: "Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14 NASB

I'm not gonna go exegetical on ya, but I did want to share with you my take on this verse.

Let's look at the first four words - Wait for the LORD

I ask myself "Self, why do I have to 'Wait for the LORD?'" "I should be able to do some things on my own. I'm not stupid ya know?"

Then the enemy of my soul says "You're exactly right Alex. You're not a dummy. You're very intelligent. God will catch up with you. Go ahead and do those things. It's cool."

Meanwhile God Almighty is shaking His head saying "Alex, I knew you before you were formed together in your momma's belly. I Love You. I guess I'm gonna have to be exceedingly patient with you since I already know what blunder you're going to get into. You're gonna blow it again. But that doesn't change the fact that I Love You with an everlasting love. My Son Jesus has already paid the price of the next sin that you're about to commit. I really wish that you would talk to me first before you go off the narrow path that I've put you on. I Love You."

I guess I can't do anything outside of God's will without breaking His heart.

So the battle rolls on in me...

Self-effacement...

Pride...

Lust...

Arrogance...

Hey God,

I need some help. I'm seeing that I am falling way short of Your High Standards. I'm trying but I'm falling at the same time. Can You help me please? I'm sorry for blowing my relationship with You. I should know better than to go about willfully hurting You. You love me the most. More than any other. and Like no other! Help Me God...

I know you're here...

Love,
Alex